Reflecting On The Past
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: Life
215 posts later here we are.

I spent a good part of this morning reading over posts in my old blog, the one I discontinued when I switched to Tripod's blog service. It's really funny when you read over stuff from two and three years ago to see how much you either acted a fool or how much you've learned since then.

So this afternoon I'm going to share some of the funniest...and some of the not-so funniest...posts.

TITLE: KIANTAE
Yesterday I met someone of substance! His name is Kiantae and he lives in the burbs. He's 21 (but doesn't act it at all), and appears to seriously have his act together. You know he even went to church with me yesterday? That's a first, as most brothas are trying to run FROM the church, not TO the church. We met on the phone, then met in person, went to church, and then went back to my place and watched Resident Evil. I suggested he stay over because he looked like he was getting tired (and because I wanted him to hold me all night -- call me selfish). He stayed over and gave me a ride to work this morning. He has class today (he's off from work -- lucky) and promised to come over about 9:30 tonight. I even invited him to go on the cruise with me in April. I'm excited -- from the word GO he has shown that he could be just about everything that I'm looking for. He doesn't go out to clubs, is in school, has a job, has his own car (shows responsibility), AND lives alone! All at 21! In all honesty I didn't think it was possible, but then again it always happens when you least expect it.
- posted by Timothy @ 11/10/2003 09:14:27 AM

Kiantae was one of the possibly worst mistakes I could have made. It's funny when you find someone that's VERY materialistic (but then again, I did have someone like that before.) Kiantae and I split up on December 4, 2003, made up on December 8, 2003, and split up again on December 23, 2003, prompting actions from me that are in the below entry.

Finally!!! A Normal Day!!!
Nothing too eventful happened today. Finally got the digital camera that I've wanted for so long. It's definitely one of the coolest and best purchases (and cheapest I might add) I've made in a long time. It's a Kodak, and so far it's all good.

I sent personals mail to four different females last night...I think that it's time for me to get my life together, to some regard. We'll see what happens from there.

Tomorrow is Thursday...how quickly the week goes by!
- posted by Timothy @ 1/7/2004 11:40:03 PM

This was a point where I started going after females (yes, females) after stupid ignorant niggas decided to push me way over the edge. It didn't work, obviously...LOL

Wednesday, February 13, 2002
Went out to Lithium last night. It's a very nicely designed club, almost as nicely designed at Atmosphere. I ran into a friend I haven't seen in about 8 months; we had a quick cocktail (for $15 you better believe it was a quick one) and went back to my place to finish off a bottle of wine I had stashed for Charles (who by the way didn't come over last night per my request). Then we crashed. Last night I told Charles that he was coming over tonight and either Thursday or Friday and that I wasn't taking no for an answer. He agreed to tonight (I'm not holding my breath). Why is it that Charles is suddenly not acting like the husband that he was at one point? Why is he neglecting me, and making me feel second and sometimes third-best? All of this on the eve of Valentine's Day. How cute. I cancelled the reservation at the Embassy Suites for us simply because (1) I need the money, and (2) He's not acting like a real husband so why the hell should I spend my hard-earned money? I have tried to be alone with him for the past several days to primarily talk to him and find out where we are, and suddenly issues start cropping up, like the 2am thing (see Feb 12). I will no longer tolerate being second and third best. Either he cleans up his act or that's it. I've been alone on Valentine's Day before, this one can be just like the rest of them...go to the bar, get full, meet someone and go home with them on an alcohol-induced high to make out with them...then get up the next morning and not remember who they are or where I met them. Hey, you know what they say, if you don't take care of home, home will be taken care of elsewhere. And right now Charles is definitely leaving the home unattended.
- posted by Timothy @ 2/13/2002 09:08:25 AM

OK...so I was with someone named Charles. At this point in my life I'm going through the "if-we're-together-longer-than-2-weeks-we're-married" phase. Charles was in his 30s, had two kids, was a strict bottom, very much into church, and was kinda...well you can read the above post and judge for yourself.

I'll share some more entries soon.
Let me just say one more thing before I go. I find it funny that people claim to want a relationship, get in one, and then want to be a undercover hoe, when they can just say these words: "I'm not trying to be in a relationship, I'm just trying to have fun", and be a hoe with no attachments.

See you all later.